#and all this time ur sisters dead and ur parents suck and you try to rewrite both those things but it hasn’t quite worked. and ur really sad

[sammygender]

some of my most random fucking original characters from half-baked story ideas i have yet to fully develop are the most tragic ones to ever exist. like yeah the people from my current work are pretty fucked up but they don’t inspire as much pain in me as when i think about citydale characters. min truly and genuinely makes me want to cry

[jasontoddswhitestreak]

something more

(originally posted by alpha-bug)

summary: where pietro confesses his feelings to you without actually confessing them to you, through a necklace. inspired by this prompt list.

content warning: pietro maximoff x fem!reader (i’ll try to write more gender neutral fics in the future!) obviously set in a world where he survives and civil war doesn’t happen. (friends to lovers, mutual pining and pietro being a sap.)

note: okay so this is my first fic in a while so i’m sorry if this sucks </3 i want to write more pietro/peter fics so please send requests ! (also lemme know if you can guess the movie bucky was confused about !)

REQUESTS ARE OPEN!

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"You're staring." Wanda points out, idly watching the older twin stare at the person who clouded his thoughts, not that Wanda needed to read his mind to know that.

"Don't you have something better to do?" Pietro scoffed, unwillingly looking away to glance at his sister. She chuckled, turning away from her brother to check on the pot on the stove, before continuing to chop the vegetables scattered on the chopping board.

"Don't you?" She simply asked, humming to the song playing out loud from her phone, Pietro's eyes were drawn back to you.

You were explaining the plot of a movie to Bucky who stared at the screen in pure confusion. "I don't get it? He killed her but he loved her?" Bucky asked you, in response you shook your head exasperated. "You saw her give birth right after, how could she be dead if she was naming her kids Buck?" You asked, glancing up when you heard the footsteps of someone approaching you.

"You're not replacing me with this old man, right?" Pietro teased, moving to sit next to you, reclining back on the couch, arm around your waist. You rolled your eyes at what he said, automatically leaning into him as the three of you continued to watch the movie playing on the big screen in front of you. The two of you barely noticed when Bucky decided to leave, too caught up with one another to bother caring about what's going on in your surroundings. You pushed him away from you when he tried to steal the m&ms you were currently snacking on only for him to pour most of the packet into his mouth.

"You disgust me Maximoff." You scoffed, biting back the smile forcing its way up. "And you love it Prinţesă." Pietro retorts, his eyes meeting yours. You opened your mouth to say something but nothing could come to mind, it was common for Pietro to randomly call you nicknames but that doesn't mean you were used to it, especially when he'd use pet-names.

Your friendship with Pietro came as a surprise to the rest of the Avengers years ago due to the differences in your personality but if you asked any of them what they thought about your friendship now they'd complain about how clueless the two of you are to the other person's feelings.

Somehow in the chaos that the two of you called your 'friendship', the line between platonic feelings and romantic feelings blurred. Pietro isn't the type of guy to steer away from romance but this situation was entirely different to anything he experienced. He cant just tell his closest friend that he loved you, he couldn't tell you how when he holds you in his arms it pains him to let go. How could he tell you that? After everything that happened to him in the past, the wall he built around his emotions to protect himself began to crumble and you were the cause of it. Pietro always struggled to talk about his feelings, his past. He felt the urge to protect himself and his twin from anything that could hurt them, he didn't want to make the same mistake again.

The unintentional movie night led to the two of you continuing to hanging out in Pietro's room hours later. It was your nightly ritual to watch an episode or two of a show that Pietro usually wouldn't want to watch before the two of you go to bed. Pietro was in the far end of his room, fumbling with something in the palm of his hand while you sat comfortably in the middle of his bed, head resting on one of his pillows as you set up the show on the laptop.

"For someone as quick as you, you sure are taking your sweet time doing whatever it is you're doing."

Pietro glanced back at you in surprise, almost like he forgot what he was supposed to be doing, too busy staring at the dainty chain tangled in the palm of his hands, with a small engagement ring at the end, in place of a pendant capturing all of Pietro's attention. It was fit for a petite woman. The silver was slightly scratched. Two slightly larger silver stones surrounded a slightly larger stone, although quite dull at first glance the engraving on the inside showed was still noticeable.

"I'm in no rush, dragoste mea." He chuckles, shoving the necklace into his pocket before moving to take his shirt off to put on a different one while continuing to speak. Your eyes followed his movements, subtly admiring his body as his muscles unintentionally flexed which resulted in you feeling your cheeks heat up, quickly looking away to not get caught checking out one of your best friends.

"You know I still don't know how I feel about Vision hanging around my sister." Pietro confesses, his overprotectiveness towards his younger sister evident as he continues to replay what occurred during dinner hours ago, Wanda confessing she wouldn't mind moving to a rural neighbourhood with Vision instead of staying at the Avengers Headquarters.

"People can't control who they fall in love with Pietro." You sighed tiredly not realising the irony behind your words, it wasn't the first time Pietro mentioned his hesitation towards the Android.

"People can't, robots can." He scoffed, walking to the dresser to put away his shirt, now wearing a pale blue shirt instead of the charcoal grey T-shirt he was previously wearing.

He moved to the bed, sitting beside you before shifting around to get comfortable. Your hand reaches out to the laptop to begin the episode only for Pietro's hand to place his above yours, stopping you.

"Since we're on this subject..." he paused to pull the necklace from his pockets before holding the necklace out towards you, letting the ring dangle from the chain between the two of you, twisting and turning because of the sudden movements.

You glanced at Pietro in confusion, eyebrows furrowed. He then pulls the hand that was covered by his own and turning it so your palm faced upwards, dropping the necklace in your hand. You held the necklace between your fingers, admiring the gems on the ring before noticing the engraving etched on the inside of the engagement band.

"I+O?" You read out the engraving in confusion, eyes meeting Pietro's soft gaze. He paused for a bit, struggling to put together a sentence that wouldn't cause the wall he created to completely collapse.

"Irina and Oleg, my parents. This was my mother's engagement ring. It was apart of the few belongings they've managed to find after what happened." He gently takes the necklace from you, signalling you to turn away from him so he can put it around your neck. Gently pushing all your hair to the side you felt goosebumps rise wherever Pietro's fingers grazed on your skin, the familiar heat rising in your cheeks once again.

You were secretly relieved that he couldn't see your reaction, the unspoken tension between the two of you currently was unbearable. You looked down at the ring, twirling it around with ur fingers while Pietro continued to speak.

"We decided that Wanda should keep our father's ring since he barely acknowledged me as his son, let alone a person." Pietro chuckles dryly.

Pietro turns you to face him, palm resting on your left cheek. "It looks good on you Draga Mea." He compliments you, eyes glancing down to your lips ever so often. "Why did you decide to give it to me?" You whispered, struggling to find your own voice.

Pietro's mouth curved into a smile, his thumb gently stroking your face

"Can't you tell?" He asked.

"Hmmm i think I'm going to have to hear you say it." You teased, smiling up at him, arms sliding around his neck pulling him closer towards you. He rolled his eyes feigning annoyance before telling you what you wanted to hear.

The next morning Wanda lightly knocked on her brother's door, wondering why he wasn't at breakfast. Waiting a couple moments for a response Wanda slowly opened the door only to be met with with the two of you lying in bed in each other’s arms,  the laptop ended up at the edge of the bed as you completely forgot about it after the events of last night. Pietro had his arms tightly wrapped around your waist while your head rested on his chest, the two of you smiling contently.

"They're good for each-other." Wanda whispers to her partner who stood beside her.

"They are indeed."

[larywitchlingacademic]

DEAD POETS SOCIETY

1. where did you hear about dead poets society?

From my mother when i started becoming depressed

2. have you ever watched it with someone?

With my sister and my bestfriend

3. how many times have you watched it?

Stopped counting after the 9th time

4. favorite character?

Neil Prry ( i relate to him so much, him aspiring to became an artist and his parents not supporting it, him having so much bisexual energy, and of course drama queen)

5. least favorite character?

Neil’s father. Do i need to say more?

6. favorite quote? (could be an actual quote from the movie or what a character said)

“I want to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life”

7. in what ways has the movie inspire you?(learn a language, read more, try make ur life more exciting, etc)

To get better (mental and physical health), to romanticize school work so i find it exciting, to make my life more worth living even through my darkest moments, to go back to reading and living through those stories.

8. did the movie make you cry at all?

First time i saw it, i cried like a newborn when i noticed what neil was going to do, all the way to the scene where Mr. Keating leaves the school. Afterwards I started tearing up anytime I saw Neil.

9. favorite actor(s) from dead poets society?

Ethan Hawke (Todd Anderson)

10. what have you learned from dead poets society?

Life is worth living

11. have you copied any phrases, mannerisms, personality traits from the movie?

….dead poets society has been part of my personality for years

12. have you ever had a teacher like mr. keating?

No not like him, but that reminded me of him. He showed me that it didn’t matter if i was bisexual or gay, and that if i wanted something, let all that stand in my way burn. He was gay, and ANGRY at the world.

13. have you ever had friends that are the same way as neil, todd, cameron, etc?

My best friend, Liz. We stay up at night rambling about mythology, books and movies. We support each other through everything and she feels like home when everything feels like it's falling apart.

14. favorite ship?

Neil and Todd, they are destined for eachother.

15. least favorite ship?

I’d rather not say, cause i know for sure i’ll get hate.

16. how did you feel about that scene where charlie got his booty paddled by the principal lol

Slightly pedofilic (and oh so kinky, how the fuck did they gt that into the movie) but we don’t talk about it

17. do you blame mr. perry or mr. keating for neil?

Mr. Perry 100%. He didn't support Neil and suffocated him. Mr. Keating only told him to follow his dreams.

18. do you think that cameron deserved to get punched by charlie?

Yes, violence is the rule of the beast and what other beast is as murderous as men

19. would you ever want to go to a school like welton academy and have a secret poetry group like the one shown in the movie? (without the drama, of course)

Not me asking to go to a boarding school in england (preferably with girls and boys) so i can fall in love?????

20. the message of dead poets society is about how education can go beyond what is taught in textbooks, and that’ll education should be taught in a way to enlighten people about the realities of life and how they shouldn’t look at things with a singular perspective. do you agree and believe that?

With my entire body and soul

@dead-academic @freckledcameron @toddspoet @deardeadpoets

@theknoxoverstreet @keepthedeadpoetsalive (sorry for tagging y'all but i love your blogs and just wanted to see what you thought lmao)

[mothbug]

maggie i’ve been trying to suss out the plot of ur bug lesbians for so long please tell me abt them. somehow it got into my head that they were?? like jaeger pilots? please confirm or deny

i can’t do a read more on mobile so i’m sorry in advance (coming back here after i’ve written this: it makes no sense. it’s all rambling. sorry. and i just put things everywhere randomly so this won’t even be typed chronologically)

yeah there’s giant fun robots! most of them are normal and fine but like a few of them are very fucked up

so there’s four pov characters and at the start of the story three of them are on the same ship and the fourth is the target they’re chasing? only one of them knows they even HAVE a target and is trying her best to stall because she and the target were roommates in fucked up robot catholic school. the other two are playing crazy 8s and being romantic and also terrified all the time but also doing a lot of theorizing about things because they know SOMETHING is up they just don’t know what’s going on. Bc you know. their commander won’t give them any information. and also avoids them because she hates narrative parallelism

also the one stalling is also having her blood drunk by her giant robot. and maybe being mildly possessed by it? so it’s maybe The most fucked up robot. it’s also a giant dog and a good boy. and an heirloom of a fucked up family. which may explain some stuff but honestly i think nisa’s mom was just a bitch and it didn’t have anything to do with the robot she’s just like that.

and she’s stalling bc she Knows she won’t turn perovskia in she knows she wouldn’t let her get hurt she Knows it’ll change her life forever if she finds her and she’s just not ready to face that. but yknow she has to so it was all just very silly of her but when something will change your life dramatically it’s terrifying even if you know that things currently Suck.

somewhere in here Arkansas’s family is threatened and it’s. upsetting. and i’m not sure what direction to go in with it but it will be important because her family means a Lot to her. she has two very good kind dads and a little sister named Tinsel. basically she has the only functional biological family out of all the characters and they make me :’) I also think they eventually meet Idabel and ADORE her and since she grew up without parents it’s just a very strange and emotional experience and. h. they r Wives. and the Trust family is all very sweet and kind even if Arkansas struggles a lot w gifted kid syndrome like i think her dads did their best even if they fucked up sometimes yknow. idabel goes fucking wild at the arcade like legitimately bloodthirsty and arkansas is just like i love my furious and powerful wife

anyway there’s some (a lot of) homoerotic space fighting (which perovskia usually wins BECAUSE she remembers when she and nisa used to spar and can predict what she’ll do. nisa ALSO remembers this bc. ofc she does. but perovskia had to learn how to adapt after Events bc her physical health changed a lot and she had to learn to be more careful about overexerting herself and also now knows how to swordfight. and moves more fluidly and confidently. so what nisa expects to happen often doesn’t bc perovskia’s fighting style has changed so much while nisa hasn’t really bothered to refine hers. anyway) perovskia (the gay little target that does a gay little crime and makes fun of you to piss you off) is like hey. what if you all committed treason it’s really fun and sexy. and then her adoptive mechanic mom gives everyone spinal surgery so their bodies don’t shut down and they won’t die :) that’s a thing by the way i won’t elaborate bc uhh :( but it is why perovskia has all the. nerve damage and chronic pain. i can elaborate on the actual Pre-story perovskia stuff later bc i think about it A Lot and it has a lot of bearing on her character but it’s also. before all this. but anyway if she hadn’t been bleeding out on Slice’s front lawn specifically she Would be dead. and there’s some fun narrative foil character shifts that happen four years before the main storyline but i will not say bc i’m tired

after this is Vague in my mind but a lot of it is Perovskia and Nisa reconnecting and just. talking. but being weird and repressed and deflective about anything Meaningful. And I have written a Lot about this so there’s more than I can condense but it’s very fucking good and. Idk. it’s a big shift in the narrative at this point and they’re just Agonizing about their dumb little feelings and it’s good. and P doing some work to make their giant fucking spaceship more stealthy. and Idabel and Arkansas being really cute and also going THROUGH it because i mean. a lot is happening. And it’s nothing either of them ever expected to happen but they’re like. hopeful for the future or whatever don’t look at me. It’s just like. put all of these characters on a spaceship in the middle of nowhere in transit and they all Have to have conversations even if they don’t want to because it’s HARD. nisa is forced by slice to learn how to make pancakes

Slice makes stew. They’re good at stew and contraptions and having a mild new england accent somehow. also canonically back in the scrapyard they would make things like the knife wielding tentacle constantly and perovskia would just stumble upon them. slice changed the live laugh love sign to say die cry hate because perovskia made fun of it. they r her mom.

so now they do some fun fun robberies and various crimes and it’s so sexy and i don’t think N and P are like. fully caught up at this point or know where they stand, so there’s a lot of very fun banter and having to work together despite really being afraid but also yearning to get to know each other again and just connect with one another honestly and openly after four fuckin years apart. because they’re both so different now but also very much the same. horse staring out into sea MAN. the thing is there’s no direct like. reason for them to avoid each other (at first P was shocked and overwhelmed and felt a little bit betrayed when she found out who was chasing her until she found out WHY. oh i forgot to mention Nisa BEGGED to be assigned commander for this mission bc she knew anyone else wouldn’t hesitate to get Perovskia killed. Forgot to mention that it’s IMPORTANT she fucking loves her so much god DAMMIT) but it’s just. tense and there’s a lot happening and it’s just. Ghhhdhbnm and ofc I and A have picked up on it since P showed up but it’s like. ok so what is Happening here. OH AND ONCE THEY START WORKING THINGS OUT IDABEL DOES START BEHAVING LIKE NISA’S SHITTY LITTLE SIBLING AND ACTING FUCKING DISGUSTED BY THEM ITS VERY FUNNY. they’re like perovskia you’re pretty cool what’s up with this. nisa sucks and also is a bitch. and perovskia says SHE CAN GET IT. and idabel says GET WHAT? BANNED FROM OLIVE GARDEN? and perovskia fans herself and is like yeah~ and idabel was just joking around but now is debating between mercilessly making fun of her and hitting her with a cricket bat. but god when P and N just get to hold each other in silence and security and just be. it’s . they. god. fuck. man.

oh i know this is a space story but perovskia just straight up has a sword (and some knives and maybe a gun idk) don’t ask me why idk but it’s very lesbian of her and she does gay little flourishes and is just. very annoying and i like her a lot. she’s very dramatic like her alias was madame revenant when she was living in the scrapyard and just doing some petty crimes like. she embroidered that jacket herself nobody calls her that she’s just a goofball. also warrior cats exist and she makes warrior cat fan animations. that just has to be true so warriors has been preserved for centuries. also she was presumed dead for a while uhh don’t think abt it too much but she likes that aesthetic.

Idabel takes the best to this new life of crime they are fucking FOR it she gets a FLAMETHROWER and Arkansas is like. wrow honestly my favorite thing abt them is that they’re both fucking INCREDIBLE pilots. like they know what they’re doing. and nisa is really really bad at it btw she cannot pilot a mech well. but this block of text isn’t about her i’m talking about THEM. Their chemistry is so good they r just. 🥺. and they both become Fast friends with perovskia because she’s just pretty likeable?? and ofc nisa’s jealous bc a) you guys don’t even like me :( but also b) that’s MY friend. it’s very funny. honey of course they didn’t like you you were being very unpleasant to be around. but arkansas does rlly wanna be friends with her and she and idabel have so much sibling energy it’s insane. i think they’d abel and cain each other for a scooby snack but also kill for each other. because they’re tiny girls who will growl at you solidarity and also probably hang out and just destroy things with bats sometimes. they all become closer and get a rlly sweet found family dynamic it just takes a While. oh also idabel is basically the chosen one and can set things on fire with her hands but it’s barely touched on because i think that’s a really funny thing to just ignore. but i also think it does become important because it’s largely fueled by anger and emotion and. h. i think idabel has a lot of feelings ok. Arkansas and Perovskia bond over having fucking anxiety disorders and have caprisun drinking competitions. i think it’s just like. these people all have similar trauma and need people to lean on when things are hard so they stick with each other once they have the option to split apart because by then they’re friends and work well together and Care. auto tuned baby crying mp3.

Alia and Agent Variety show up somewhere around here? They’re Slice’s very cool wives and Alia has a Vechicle Collection and own fucking stupid race cars and stuff and I love her. perovskia is afraid of being in vechiles so she has to take a fucking benadryl every time they have to make a getaway. Variety isn’t actually an Agent anymore and I also love HER because she’s very fucking good. they started out as just contacts slice had but it turns out they’re all in love <3 alia is also actually a sports car racer like. unprofessionally. illegally. which is just very cool of them.

Also i don’t think it has. a very BIG end, yknow? it’s like, they’re doing very good things and are up against a lot, and I don’t think they like.. singlehandedly take down the government or anything because they’re only a few people. but i think they get a happy ending and get to grow old while making positive changes to the world around them. like i don’t think they’ll be able to solve everything but they’re sure as hell gonna do what they can. But idk maybe they actually do get like. some good shit done. but again they’re not. an army. they’re a bunch of 20-somethings and their rube-goldberg-machine-creating chaperone. but i think they should get a fun climactic moment so i guess this is all to say i don’t. have an ending planned. but there should probably be one at some point.

OH AND the giant evil blood sucking dog vineyard vines robot Definitely almost kills Nisa (or at least fully destroys her in some way) and. it’s very narrowly avoided and she’s very very weak for a while because it took a lot out of her. also the dog robot does make grape vines grow and uhhhh any grapes that show up are 100% full of the pilot’s siphoned blood. also i think there’s still some remnants of that bitch in nisa’s mind afterwards bc an old mechanical god is hard to get rid of. but it’s mostly ok.

Also the bug people are just. a thing. like every person in the most recent generation in this specific society are at least a little bit genetically experimented on because. it sucks there. and i think if your parents bribe the government you can be a little Less fucked up but yknow. everyone’s a little weird. this was an excuse to put bug ppl in here they’re just the folks who were probably the most fucked with and i have many bug people here because i think bugs are cool and i want them to look like weird little bugs. This was all also an excuse to give the main characters fangs bc i’m gay. i don’t think randomly fucking with your genetics will make you a bug in real life so do not try this at home or at all PSA

SPEAKING of the society ok it’s very much obsessed with earth nostalgia and stuff and very yknow. basic cyperpunk shitty capitalism you know the drill you’ve seen space operas whatever but it’s also weirdly oligarchical? and like? it’s weird and bad and kind of a corporatocracy?? and. fuck. idk man they’re a fucked up space catgirl greeble-y amazon with catholic imagery. The Academy is also a thing but. idk how to describe it more than i already have it’s just kinda shitty boarding school. And after a certain point ppl can get sent on like. missions and stuff? in their fucking robots? but again i’m not sure what For. an option could be that there’s nearby Shit and nobody can tell if it’s safe because space is weird? also it’s only about 3200 so i’d say like. whole societies out in space is a relatively new thing and there’s some weird shit going on. so they sometimes send teenagers out in robots to see what’s up and that ends SUPER well for EVERYONE. hmm something SHOULD be going on actually there should be some weird eldritch space stuff. it should be connected to the more fucked up robots. it should also be Core’s fault somehow because uhhh capitalism and lack of foresight? anyway here’s women kissing i don’t know things. WAIT FUCK I FORGOT TO MENTION HOW SHADY SOME OF THE STUFF GOING ON IS LIKE THE DEATHS OF THE CREW PEROVSKIA WAS ON UHHH JUST TRUST ME DUDE like they are NOT afraid to get kids killed which was IMPLIED but also like it goes a little deeper than that and uhh i don’t know exactly what’s happening. but i’m sure it’ll all fall into place eventually. basically it’s very fatt shitty faction vibes idk how else to describe it. man it‘s like. just. there’s stuff happening they have goals and ideals and there’s probably more to it than i know so far bc stuff happens but i don’t KNOW what i’m tired and have been typing this for a year i don’t want to talk abt the bad capitalists i want to talk about tenderness and girls but unfortunately the ways in which the girls are tender are deeply informed by the environment they grew up in so i do have to think about it even if they all deserved better.

i think they all get a cat or a dog or something eventually. like they all deserve it. i think the final home they build together is actually pretty reminiscent of the scrapyard house. i think they get to live there for the rest of their lives and. just build something small and wonderful for themselves :’)

also i forgot to put men in the story they exist i just forgot about them. there’s nisa’s one ex i already forgot his name but he’s mentioned i think.

[thatsdemko]

Ask you out-C.McCarthy

Requested: yes|no

“You’ve never had a boyfriend and are scared/nervous to have one bc you feel like no one will ever love you bc ur 18... so you go to your brother jack upset and tells Case...”

A/N: I felt the first part of this imagine on a personal level.

Let me know your thoughts if you have any!

You never felt the need to compare yourself with your brothers about anything but hockey, until today. You were reminded that your brothers were, not because they were more famous than you, more likely to have girls all up on them or attracted to them due to the fact that they are better looking than you. Sure, it was dumb comparison because you were a girl and they were boys, but none of them had troubles finding a girl to like them, all they had to do was go on Instagram check their DMs and they were set. You, on the other hand, couldn’t do that. Nobody was interested in you like they were to Jack, Quinn, or Luke. You were just another girl who played hockey who had nothing that stood out.

Out of your brothers two of them have had, or are in, relationships. Luke had been talking with girls, but nothing extremely serious but at least he had attention while you didn’t. You’ve always wondered what it would be like to be pretty or to at least know you are. You’ve never been in love or have someone of the opposing gender have an interest in you before.

You never really got like this, but you had just recently turned eighteen and had been reminded by all your friends and their boyfriends at your party that you weren’t even close to a relationship. Nobody had an interest in you.

You grabbed one of your blankets off your bed throwing it around you walking across the hall into jacks room standing in the door way, “what’s wrong?” He frowned taking his eyes off his phone moving over in his bed letting you come lay down next to him. Usually you talked this stuff out with Alex, but since he moved out you had no one to turn to but your brother.

“Nothing,” you whispered laying down next to your brother staring at the fortnite loading page on his television screen, he had just got done playing you could imagine since his controller was still in his bed, “you want to talk about it?” He asked and you shrugged resting your head on his shoulder, “have you ever been worried that nobody will ever love you?” You asked playing with the tag on your blanket.

“Not really, why?”

You shrug at that brushing your hair out of your face, “I knew you wouldn’t understand—“

“wait, wait, don’t go come on, talk to me.” Jack begged not letting you leave home bedroom until you told him what was going on.

“What makes you think that?”

“Because,” you started off letting out a sigh leaning your head back against the head board, “a couple nights ago at my eighteenth birthday party every one of my friends had a boyfriend and it just reminds me that I’m not even close to that. I’m never going to have someone who likes me because I don’t think I’m meant to have a relationship, and I know nobody will ever have any interest in me.”

Jack shook his head knowing that wasn’t true. He knew somebody who liked you a lot, he knew somebody for months who had been trying to work up the courage to ask you out, “that’s not true and I know that. I know there is someone interested in you, y/n.” He replied and you looked over at him like he was crazy.

“You’re just saying that—“

“No, I’m not.”

—

That next day you were all headed off to New Jersey for development camp, you were going to explore the city with your parents and Luke while jack would be playing, you were excited to see Newark and get a feel of the state, Jack said that you would like it and that there would be a surprise for you. Which kind of scared you.

“Ask your sister out? What are you nuts?” Case asked, Case had liked you for a long time now, he always got really nervous around you and never really knew how to act, it was obvious to your brothers that he liked you and they tried to get him to ask you out, but he imagined he would get rejected.

“You’ve liked her for far too long just do it. She thinks nobody likes her and I know you do, I’m not asking you to give me your leg or something.” Jack hissed, they both sat together at the back of the plane while you sat with your mother towards the front.

“I know, but you would be okay with that?”

“I want my sister to be happy and I think you could make her happy.” Jack admitted, he knows you and Case are good friends and he trusted Case with you.

“Okay, I’ll ask her out but if she says no—“

“She won’t, Case. I promise you.”

—

“Hey, Case how are you?” You smiled sitting together at a Yankees baseball game, your brother was invited and your family was there early along with case’s family so you all got to join him in the suite.

“I’m good,” he said sitting down next to you in the suite with a plate of food, “how are you?”

“I’m alright, happy to be here, it’s a nice day.” You sighed happily watching the Yankees score a run in and case nodded his head, “yeah so I have a question, it may be a stretch.”

“Alright shoot,” you turned to him and he shrugged, “would you maybe, I don’t know, want to go out sometime? Like on a date?”

You looked at him funny for a second trying to even process the words that came out of his mouth unsure if this was real life that he, the most attractive ntdp ever, was asking you out.

“Is this a joke?” You asked, you knew that if this wasn’t case would never use you for your brother, he would never date you for the soul purpose of trying to get close with jack. This was one guy you were good friends with that you believed had no bad intentions of anything.

“No, I’m not joking y/n, I like you. I really want to go on a date with you.”

“with me?” You asked again and he nodded his head nervously expecting you to reject him now, he thought you were way out of his league and almost any ntdp in the locker room months back would tell Case that was a joke, you were perfectly in case’s league, not too far out and not too close, you were perfect for Case and for that time they so badly tried to convince him that,

“Yeah, with you, what do you say?”

“I’d love to go on a date with you.” You said seeing the relief in him exhale as those words came out of your mouth, “you sure?”

“I’m sure,” you laughed hearing the door open to the suite and you looked over your shoulder seeing your brother come in, “what are you two talking about?”

“Just how you suck at hockey, nothing out of the normal.” You joked taking a piece of fruit from case’s plate getting up out of your chair before Case could yell at you and you went over sitting with your parents now watching the game.

“You ask her?” Jack asked Case and he nodded his head, “you break my sisters heart you’re a dead man got it, McCarthy?”

“I got you.”

[morningfears]

cat i wanna slap you REAL HARD. i’ve read every single one of your texts. every. single. one. AT LEAST TWICE (i’m not gonna say i get off to your smut hence i know your texts back to back but that’s exactly it; as for the PG-13 ones i reread them when you haven’t posted in a while). and you’re just wrong about ur writing. it’s amazing. all your texts are so fucking good. the dialogues are well placed, the descriptions are vivid but not boring, the characters are amazingly developed. u r rong —🤠

It’s long, so, read more.

i honestly became a 5sos fan because of your writing. the characters are so well portrayed and their personalities so rich that i thought “hey i wanna know more about them”. and that’s when i realized a lot of your 5sos characters were your creation. and honestly? WIG. and then i became a fan of your writing, that’s why it makes me sad AND mad to see you being so harsh on yourself. nuh-uh bitch you ain’t criticizing stuff that i fucking live for. even if you’re the one creating it and what i said about MF3 is based on what you said a few days earlier, that you’re too repetitive and that as you read it through to edit the text you got more and more annoyed. it’s like,,,,,,, ok, i get that. you were a little repetitive, but apart from it your word choice and the development of the story? amazing. so much better than the first version of MF3 and the first version was already MIND BLOWING and yes, i’ve been here since the first few versions of MF, when it was still a reader insert rather than charlotte. all i’m saying is: i’ve got the time and the patience to annoy the living fuck out of you just to prove what an absolutely incredible writer you are heh much love tho 

Right off the top of my head, Puppy Love and Ice are both absolute trash. Like, garbage. Lost in Japan, also garbage. Honestly, anything written before 2019, probably trash. Not Getting Over This? So overrated, oh my god. The dialogue is choppy, at best, and feels. Not out of place but like it disrupts the flow? If that makes any sense. The only thing I can write is snarky dialogue. I’m not good at feelings or emotions or whatever. And I kind of hate that. Like, I tried so hard for so long to be ~accurate~ in my portrayal of the guys and I mean, I try to be close but they don’t have to be like dead on now, but I mean. At least I know for sure it wasn’t just in my head that I felt like I was making shit up now. Honestly, I annoyed myself with MF. Lottie’s got a lot of my personality so she’s insecure and whiny as fuck and, I mean, I hate myself most of the time so I hate Lottie sometimes, too. I annoyed myself writing it because I repeated so much and I’m annoying myself now repeating myself but I can’t help it. This is something I’ve struggled with for so long and, like, it’s ruined good things in my life and I just don’t know when to give up, I guess. I just want to be able to write something beautiful and magical that people love and, more importantly, that I love. I want to write something that I’m proud of and that I stay proud of. I was proud of so many of my works and then I reread them or I got into my head and I hate them now and I hate that. I just know that they could be so much better and I can’t help thinking that someone else could have taken the idea and run with it and created something beautiful that would shame my fic. Like,  I see so many writers on here now and they’ll run with ideas that I’ve had (that are common ideas, like, I’m not claiming them as. my own or anything) and they do it so well that I just give up because there’s no competing. And, like, I know that I only hate my writing because it’s mine and I have to see it and think about it but writing is the only thing I was ever praised for and I’m honestly not making that up. Like, my brother was an athlete, my step sister was perfect (like, literally;  model, cheerleader, now she’s a fucking motivational speaker what kind of bullshit, anyway). My writing was the only thing worthwhile and you know how there’s always that kid that’s super smart and everyone praises them and then they get out into the world and they’re, like, average at best and they kind of spiral? Yep. I used to think I was the shit. Like, back in Quizilla or Mibba days? You couldn’t tell me shit. There wasn’t a better ATL writer. I didn’t compare myself to anyone and I was so happy. Did I give a fuck if anyone read my Jack story? Nope. Because that shit was self indulgent as fuck. It was stupid and made no sense at all but it was mine and I loved the hell out of it. I was SO goddamn proud of that fic. Now, when everyone is so good and they’re writing these beautiful fucking pieces of goddamn art, like. What’s my place? Where do I fit? I feel like I was once a great writer and now I’m one of those stupid kids that writes garbage fics everyone secretly makes fun of (which, I know no one does because no one talks about me just in general [honestly, though, if they did, it’d probably be like about how annoying I am because I am, I know] but like you get the idea) and ends up on someone’s bullshit ‘bad fics’ blog (which, if I do, please tell me. Someone stole one of my fics and posted it on Wattpad and the comment section was literally just them making fun of how bad it was and, uh, a bitch had a breakdown but that’s fine). Like, there are writers on here that are so goddamn talented and are genuinely better than I could ever even think of being, no matter how much I write and how much I practice and how hard I push myself. They have natural talent that I would fucking kill for. But I’m mediocre at best, pretending to be a good writer when I can’t hold a candle to these people. It’s like those penguins that are just, like, smile and wave. Pretend like you belong. But I don’t. This fandom and Harry have some of the best fics I’ve ever read and in other fandoms, I felt comfortable liking my own work because, compared to everyone else, it wasn't half bad. But here? I’m a toddler writing my first sentence while everyone else is writing fucking thesis level shit. And I know I complain that people don’t give me feedback on my work but, like. I fully get it. What feedback could they give? It’s not good and I don’t want people to lie to me. And I clearly don’t take criticism well (I try to but I end up getting defensive and I also hate that about myself, fun fact). So. I don’t know. I appreciate the attempt, though. I am also stubborn and I end up annoying everyone and driving them away with my overthinking and self-doubt. It won’t be the first time. I still hate myself for that, too, lol.

Anyway, this is a long winded bullshit whiny rambling rant and I’m sorry. I’m gonna finish the creepy dummy episode of Buffy and then go the fuck to sleep. My lucky bag shipped today and unless it’s a variation, it sucks and I’m mad my parents wasted the money because it’s nonrefundable. Like, I want a mirror, not fucking straws. :( Anyway. Yep. 

[atdelilah]

as per request: HEY THERE DELILAH WHAT’S IT LIKE IN ASHMONT CITY anyways what’s poppin y’all, it’s ya girl jalynn, back at it again with ya new girl delilah whom i based off of a mixture of the gotham city siren gang (aka catwoman, harley quinn, and poison ivy)!! i’m very excited to throw her at yall

i guess the easiest way to dive in is to just explain her backstory so here goes:

she is the youngest of two girls, and her parents own/run the biggest catholic megachurch in the state so. she’s rich, she has an image to live up to

as expected, that plan flops

her older sister, abigail, very much fits the “good christian daughter” mold, but delilah is just way too curious, and asks “why?” in the middle of church service way too often to even get close to fitting that image

yes, our girl has had problems with authority and being told what to do from a very young age

naturally, her parents were hating this very, very much and this is how the seed of a very bad relationship with your parents is born

but on the bright side! delilah and her sister were close as could be, two peas in a pod when they were kids!! they were basically polar opposites in terms of personality (delilah being the kid who will ask “why?” every time you speak vs abigail just respecting authority because what else was she supposed to believe?)

that was basically how her early childhood went. her parents wanting her to be more like abigail, delilah being like “okay anyways”, and abigail being angel girl that her parents loved the most

so then comes middle school (a tough time for everyone), and stuff in delilah’s life is either hitting the fan, or taking root so it can hit the fan later

the first thing to hit the fan: her relationship with her parents. at this point, delilah figured out that no matter what she did to be her own, her parents would never stop wanting her to be a clone of abigail, so honestly? she just stopped caring about their opinion altogether

they already were set in their belief that she was disappointing, and annoying, and just too much, so why not just do what you want anyway? that’s delilah’s thought process

she just blatantly started ignoring their rules, really. she started questioning her faith in more targeted ways, she started finding ways to sneak out of the house, and went out of her way to break her parents’ “no dating” rule

also it’s important to note that delilah went to an all-girls’ k-12 catholic school and she HATED it. she snuck out because she just wanted to hang out and go to normal schools like all her rich, non-catholic neighbors. plus her mother worked at the school, and delilah took any opportunity to just do the exact opposite of whatever her mom asked of her

basically, delilah liked finding ways of reclaiming her autonomy and personal identity because her parents’ worked so hard to try to take it away from her! it’s at this point where we see her begin to do things simply because they make her feel powerful and independent! middle school, am i right

the biggest downside to this is that it starts causing problems between her and her sister. with delilah being in middle school, and abigail being in high school at the time, it’s already obvious that problems would arise just due to the differences in age. but the differences between the two only became more evident as they got older; abigail was constantly ready to go tell on delilah, and delilah was always taking jabs and saying abigail didn’t have a mind of her own. arguing was a regular occurrence. the sisters still 100% loved each other, for sure, but it’s a tough age phase they’re going through, plus there’s just no such things as siblings that don’t argue.

now we’re in high school, another horrible and weird time for teenagers across the nation, but especially for our girl delilah

her parents are so beyond sick of her at this point, really. the only reason they haven’t completely cut her out is because it wouldn’t look good if they did r.i.p

delilah stopped going to church altogether, she’d gotten busted on her escapades multiple times (not that she cared, really), and the “no dating” rule was just.....so beyond ignored

the seed had been planted when she was in middle school, but when she got into high school, delilah just completely embraced how pretty she is. boyfriends, girlfriends, flings, sexual partners; you name it, she was doing it. she didn’t really know she was gaining a lil’ heartbreaker reputation because honestly? outside of the whole power trip it gave her, she was really just having fun ahdgashdgsdj

( small disruption to say drug tw here )

big downside to high school: in the midst of her constant sneaking out and rule-breaking, she fell into some things and people that she shouldn’t have, and by her senior year (17/18 years old) she’d developed an addiction to a small variety of drugs

like any addiction, it did have big effects on a lot of aspects of her life. her grades (which she generally took pride in) were slipping massively, and all of her relationships (friends, romantic, familial aka with her sister) were falling to points that were nearly beyond repair

abigail, being the big sister she is, was extremely upset about the whole situation and basically convinced their parents to check delilah into rehab and they were on board with the plan, not because they cared about delilah’s wellbeing, but because the way she was spiraling was a liability to their image in their eyes

so now delilah is 18, she’s graduated from that k-12 all-girls school (no longer at the top of her class), and is promptly checked into rehab, we love this for her! but she absolutely hates the whole thing, so .

she didn’t hate the literal getting off of drugs, but what she hated the most was that she felt like she’d proven her parents right. to her, it was one thing to let them just assume the worst about her; it was a whole different feeling to actually give them something as big as this to root their assumptions in.

but that (plus the underlying desire to not worry her sister) was enough for her to take being rehabilitated very seriously. she did what she had to do and was out by the beginning of the next school year! probably one of the first times in her life she actually followed instructions from authority figures, honestly. but she told herself she was doing all of it because she wanted to, not because she had to.

also just something to add, it was in rehab where delilah got super into poetry and reading and classics!! it’s not like she had an abundance of things to do at her disposal, so she picked reading as a hobby to pass time but ended up being really into it. it was one of the first times where she felt like she had a purpose in life outside of living to fuck with her parents asjdhaskdjha

fast forward, we now have senior year college girl delilah!! she’s 3 (going on 4) years clean off everything she was addicted to!! we love this for her determined queen

she’s also worked really hard to rebuild her relationship with her sister and they’re back on very, very good terms. she’d do anything for her sister, period

but delilah is still delilah, she’s still a lil heartbreaker, she’s still hard-headed as ever, and she’s still got a variety of other things to learn about and grow through but i don’t wanna talk all about it here and make this longer than it already is asjdhakjsh onto the next part!

personality!

+ independent, dedicated, passionate, sensitive but lowkey she’d rather die than admit it or show it

- stubborn, prone to isolating herself mentally/emotionally, self-sabotaging, good liar but she considers this more of a skill to use here and there

100% will do anything for the people she loves......now that list isn’t necessarily long but. once you’re on that list, you’re On that list

the investigation.....

okay so basically delilah is 100% anti-daisey

she didn’t really know daisey too well growing up and didn’t really care to asdjkhasdkjh but they were both in rehab at the same time so they officially met then

but daisey enjoyed picking at delilah’s little insecurities and also talking shit about her sister, and like the picking on her was like "eh i don’t like you" but talking shit about abigail? l m a o

basically if delilah hadn’t been so determined to be on her p’s and q’s in that rehab center, she woulda beat daisey’s ass, and that’s point blank period

plus delilah just didn’t like daisey’s attitude or anything even aside from how daisey treated her specifically, like just the way she treated others turned delilah off of her

so yeah when daisey turned up missing delilah was just like that....is not my problem 😗

when daisey turned up dead delilah was like damn 😗 sucks to suck r.i.p though

i’m not saying delilah killed her or anything but i’m just saying. delilah’s got a short temper and probably had to be held back anytime daisey said anything funny about abigail (which was all the time bc like. it’s daisey)

and the whole killer on the loose sending messages thing creeps her out but like. she’s very much a go with the flow, look at the big picture kind of girl so she’s just. trying not to let it phase her too much

connections!

y’all already know i’m not picky about anything just throw an idea at me and we can make something shake

and i think that’s about it? like this, or hmu or anything if u wanna plot i’m really excited for all of ur characters to talk to the kid!! also can u guys guess which gotham city siren i pulled the most inspo from (admins not allowed to guess bc u guys already read my app)

[mmohana-blog1]

heyo! i am holly, admin and dumbass, and this is hana, wannabe illustrator and also a dumbass! below the cut are some tldr (that’s a lie cause its long as hell but u kno... it be like that) deets about her, but you can find her full bio here and her basic profile right here. drop a like on this or just hmu if we haven’t plotted yet and/or if you wanna whip up a thread!! (^: 

overall: sweet to a fault, often overbearing, generally pretty odd, simultaneously the mom and the hyperactive child, trying to explore new life experiences, and forever fascinated by the complexities of people! 

she was born in busan, but moved to seoul when she was 8. she was An Accident, born after her parents fully thought they weren’t able to have more kids. she has one sister, who is a #confirmed genius child, and she’s been trapped in her shadow her entire life, constantly trying to live up to the expectations she set.

once her sister graduated she tried to grab her parents attention by devoting herself fully to her studies cause she was like.. desperate for their love and affection, but that shit didnt work! 

depression crept into her life when she was fifteen. the buildup of both parental and outside pressures was the catalyst, but she also carries around immense self doubt AND offers excessive love/affection/emotion to others as a way to avoid dealing with her own problems, which just weighed her down until her brain gave up. she started going to therapy about a year after moving into the sharehouse, and has been learning better coping mechanisms! (self care 2k19) 

she’s hella friendly and usually has very little issue forming new relationships. she has always tried to be nice to anyone and everyone, and it extremely empathetic to the feelings of others. that has opened her up to ppl taking advantage of her + her not making the most... sound/rational choices in company... so she is trying to stop freely giving so much of her own happiness and heart to others. (she still collects fleeting infatuations like they’re playing cards tho rip)

discovered a love + natural talent for art as a child that kept growing as her skill sets developed. started making goofy lil comics as a kiddo and has never stopped!! she makes comic strips for the sacred hearts zine about goofy shit she sees around the sharehouse... basically everyone has been featured at least once in cutesy cartoony form. her main goal is to one day author her own manhwa, but she has about a million WIP ideas that have been building up in her sketchbook for years (the most recent being about a delinquent weirdo girl with fortune-telling dreams.) her main inspirations are the people she meets day-to-day, which has grown into a pretty intense people-watching habit LOL

she works at happyro, and usually gets stuck with the super late night shifts. mostly just spends her time doing art projects for school or playing animal crossing. even tho she is tired af its the perfect gig bc she loves the free time + she genuinely loves video games.

dresses like a weird mismatched mess! lives for a problem pattern! wears so much color that u can spot her from a thousand miles away! (for a general idea of her aesthetic u can check out her pinterest board) 

makes so many baked goods bro she sucks at cooking meals but she can make sweets like a CHAMP. her apartment always smells like cookies and she always has some goodies to give people when they stop by her room 

eats so much fuckin candy that she should probably be dead by now. can go thru whole bags of gummies in a single day... she lives for that shit. her diet is terrible (but trust that she will chide ppl for not eating well)

has dozens of cheap claw machine plushies. not just bc she loves plushies, but bc she is DETERMINED to learn the secrets of the claw machines. 

random plot ideas!

obviously her subplots, which are sacred hearts (the sharehouse zine) and muse (nude modeling), and both clearly grounds 4 some fun stuff LOL 

happyro regulars! other gamers! folks who just come in to spend time with her while she’s working the late shift! 

fellow hongik students! (there r so many hongik kids.. squad)

close good friends! 

one of her many crushes during her year and a half in the sharehouse... maybe an ex.... who knows! she’s been around for a bit! 

aforementioned person that was taking advantage of her/proving to be poor company, whether that be someone who was just blatantly toxic, or just.. someone who did not mesh well with her in the end. 

also someone who is just hella annoyed by her please 

she’s all about new experiences, but for a young cute girl... shit can be dangerous alone. someone to come with her as she checks out local dive spots at night.

you were not very happy with the way she interpreted you in a comic/she documented a moment you didn’t expect anyone to see and now you’re mad embarrassed.

you both go to the same therapist and just now realized it

there has been a steady beat of 24/7 chill hip hop coming from her room for a good four hours now and you are about to lose your marbles 

she is on commission for drawings at all times! caricatures? she’s got u. a piece for ur obligatory gen-ed art class? she’s got u. framed drawing of one of insuk’s cats? she’s got u. 

one of her rainbow ass shirts got mixed in with a load of your whites somehow and turned them all diff colors and you obviously KNOW the culprit bc who else would wear this kind of pattern 

there are stickers all over your shit and u have no idea where they came from 

[ravenschmaven]

GIVE US THE STAR WAR SPOILERS

like, all of em??

because, if so

HERES THE WHOLE DAMN FUCKING FILM UNDER THE CUT

We open to poe dameron about to fuck up a ship called a dreadnought - which is HUGE - because the rest of the rebellion is trying to evacuate. he cals hux, pretends he has no signal, makes a yo mama joke then begins blowing up the surface guns so that the ship cant destroy the bombers who are on their way to smash the ship.

leia tells him not to do the thing, he ignores her, blows up all the guns, and summons the bombers, which are these huge bulky things which move at a snails pace while tiefighters and x-wings fight around them. all but one of the bombers blows up, and the last bomber is able to drop the payload because of an asian officer we later realise is rose’s sister. rose’s sister is one of the many who die, with about five x-wings making it back. The rebellion goes to warp, finn wakes up and asks ‘where’s rey’.

Rey is exactly where we left her. she gives the lightsaber to luke, who yeets it over the edge and goes ‘fuck that shit im out’. she annoys him into accepting that she isn’t moving, then she plays the chewie card, and chewbacca trashes the shit outta the place. luke finds out han is dead, and FINALLY gets his head oudda his ass. Wont teach rey tho because kylo ren is a punk bitch who ruins everything. We see flashes of a flashy wristwatch. luke mentions kylo being a shit and talks about what happened. apparently luke confronted him about the darkness and ren went batshit. r2d2 also swears at luke repeatedly for a few seconds.

somewhere between snoke spends like five minutes roasting kylo ren and calling him a shithead while dressed in a gold bathrobe. ‘you have too much of your father’s heart’. ren smashes his helmet against the lift (rude) and yells at two officers to get his ship ready. hux is peacocking around like an asshole.

 while that happens leia gives poe shit for going ahead with a mission that got people killed. Leia HITS POE. LIKE FUCKING SMACKS HIM. (rian post ur address i just wanna talk) and then demotes him for doin his job??? even tho he aint really doing his job. poe is mad as fuCK. Leia has another flashy wristwatch which is actually a tracking device so rey can find the rebellion. she gives it to finn.

We drop out of warp, and everybody is seemingly chill until the first order rocks up literally 30 seconds later, including snoke, who has his own ship like an asshole. People panic, the first order, including kylo ren, attacks, and blows up the launch bay, killing every pilot except poe and a few others, and the bridge, which holds all the generals including leia. leia uses the motherfucking force to fly through space, and makes it back to the ship. she falls into a coma, where vice-admiral/general/mauve murder baby takes charge. her idea of saving everyone is to use their remaining fuel supply to stay just out of range of their gunners, which gives them about 16 hours left.

finn wants to save rey’s life so tries to sneak out, but gets caught by rose, who’s sobbing over the loss of her sister because they dont even get time to MOURN YALL. rose sees him as a hero, then talks about how shes caught 3 deserters, then realises finn is kind-of-deserting, then stuns him. finn wakes up in a trolley and explains the situation (lack of fuel, we’re all gonna die, they tracked us through warp) and rose figures out how they could track the fleet through warp.

if finn leads rose to the weird tracking thingo, she can disable it and save the fleet. the dynamic duo go to poe, whos confused and is really trigger happy and i dont like it, but he agrees that its a good idea. They ask maz how to break in, she says shes busy, and tells them to find this gambler guy with a red flower pin at Space Vegas. the team keep the plan under wraps, with only poe, finn, rose, and a few other officers knowing about the trip. finn, rose and bb8 leave, finn having given poe the tracking device thingy to poe.

Back at it again on depression island and rey is attempting to annoy luke into teaching her. We see the weird tiddy creatures, chewy eats some porgs and rey connects with the force and finds the ancient jedi texts in a funky looking tree. lukes asks who she is and why shes here, she says shes scared of the awakening and has no idea what to do. luke decides to get his act together and teach her.

the day he goes to teach her, rey’s chillin in her room and has a vision of Space trash panda - aka kylo ren - rey calls him a shithead and ren is confused as to how they’re talking, then rey freaks out and shoots the illusion, much to the chagrin of the caretakers (who look like my grandmother). rey lies to luke when he asks about the hole in the wall.

jedi lesson number one is to reach out and feel the force. after telling luke that being a jedi is about moving rocks and breaking shit, and being called a dumbass, rey sits on a rock and shows off a shittonne of power, but also a rising dark side (the motif of this film seems to be that the stronger u get the stronger the good/evil bitchfight) which makes luke panic because ‘this was what ben was like!!!!!!!!!!!! oh no!!!!!!!!!!’ luke get ya head oudda yo ass. its also revealed that luke has shut himself away from the force somehow.

the dynamic duo is in space vegas (they illegally park on a beach) and are walking through the casino and looking for Rose Brooch Guy. rose hears a noise and recognises it as the noise of some funky lookin animal which they use to race. finn says this place is great and asks why rose hates it. rose shares her backstory as the daughter of people who lost so much under the first order. its implied that rose joined because of what happened on starkiller base. she also talks about how everyone here sells weapons to the first order and gets rich off of it. bb8 does his damn job and finds red flower guy, but they get arrested for illegally parking the shuttle on the beach and dont get a chance to talk to the guy, whos gambling with two women on his arm.

one of the support ships runs out of fuel and gets exploded. I think its the medical one first. doesnt matter shit explodes and nobody cares.

JEDI LESSON #2: the jedi suck shit. the jedi are failures and luke keeps talking about it. talks about how he failed kylo ren. rey goes that there seems to be a light inside him (ew) somewhere near here. somewhere throughout the film are a few more force-vision things. one when its raining on Jedi island, one when Ren has no shirt (he looks like a ken doll) and another (the final one) when ren talks about his perspective of that night when luke confronted him.

rose and finn get thrown in space vegas prison, and are angrily yelling abt the problems with their plan when their roommate says ‘hey yeah i can break into a maximum security first order vessel’ then subsequently breaks out of prison. while rose and finn escape, bb8 bashes a few guards over the head and kicks ass.

Rose and Finn end up in the stables of those weird elephant-horse-camel creatures, and start a stampede with the help of the child slaves stable hands by using rose’s secret rebellion ring to prove theyre good guys. the animals seem to have a connection w/rose so i guess shes incredible. the dynamic duo are trapped between a clifface and the cops, and there’s a second where the pair say their ‘goodbye’s before a ship pops up with bb8 at the door going ‘get in bitch we’re going shopping!!!’ with the thief guy from before.

uuuh i think this is where support ship #2 goes because poe picks another fight saying that the new leader is running away and being a coward. she kicks him off the bridge.

rey explores the upside down dark force place on her own, and asks the dark force to show her her parents (I shit u not) it doesnt work and she tells this to kylo’s weirdass force ghost as she sits next to a fire. rey pleads w/ kylo to join the light one last time, and holds out her hand. fingertips touch and then luke fuckin rips the hut to shreds with the force. rey and luke fight, rey continuously pushing for the truth and luke confesses to, for a second, wanting to kill ren, and it was that second of weakness that led to all of this. rey thinks that ren can be saved and fucks off to Snoke’s Party Palace, where ren currently is. She takes the falcon and leaves luke behind.

poe starts a fight with the new leader while leia’s in a coma as the rebels abandon ship for the escape pods. he takes over and locks himself in the bridge to buy finn and rose more time. finn and rose have to barter with the codebreaker by giving him the only piece of her sister rose has left (a matching pendant with huge yin-yang vibes). finn calls him an asshole. the ship that they’re flying on belongs to somebody who sold weapons to both the first order and the resistance.

rey gets chewie to drop her off @ the Party Palace and is immediately captured by Ren and gets brought to Snoke. Snoke - still in the bathrobe - is pleased and brags about how his master plan is brilliant. turns out hes the reason there was a connection between them, AND the reason for the raging struggle in kylo ren. this bitch then fucking starts torturing rey for into on where the fuck luke is, rey aint a snitch so doesn’t say shit, but makes a few attempts at killing snoke. 

finn, rose, bb8, and randomass thief guy sneak onto the ship and wear disguises (including bb8, who is in an upside down trash can) to get to the tracking device thingy. however, bb8 is very unusual and attracts the attention of the first order version. thief guy uses rose’s necklace to crack open the lock, then gives it back. aww. but then they get caught by first order just as rose is about to break the tracker. not so aww. captain phasma shows up and finn is ready to start swinging.

poe’s locked down the bridge, and c3p0 is being a whiny shit and starts panicking when somebody starts lasering the door down. poe gets ready to shoot a bitch, but hesitates when he sees that it’s Our Lady and Saviour Leia. she, however, doesn’t hesitate and shoots him w/ something that causes him to go flying and knocks him out (???????)

on the rebellion ship, leia is talking to purple-hair lady - poe is being lifted into a shuttle - when purple-hair lady reveals that she’s going down w/ the ship so that the shuttles can escape. they say may the force be w/ u and leia looks longingly out the window @ her not-gf. poe wakes up, and leia explains the Master Plan. purple-hair lady knew about the tracking and had them rock up to this particular place because there’s a whole fucking planet nobody talks about that used to be a base.

rose and finn have been captured and are paraded thru the loading dock. the codebreaker sold information to the first order about the shuttles, and the ship begins firing on the shuttles.

WE INTERRUPT YOUR REGULAR SPACE FIGHT FOR SOME ANGSTY ISLAND BOI. luke goes to torch the tree where the jedi books are kept when yoda shows up (really bitch), asks wtf hes doing, then sets fire to the tree himself. theres some weirdass yoda speak of which i understood none of it but was about how failures are good teachers too (what is this motivational speaker month)

and back at it again at space fight the musical

Snoke’s still throwing rey around, then pushes her against a window so she can see the rebellion dying. he takes her/luke’s lightsaber, places it next to him, then tells kylo ren to kill her. snoke is revelling in rey being helpless, and starts monologuing kylo’s actions. ‘he turns the blade to face his true enemy’ luke’s blade shofts so it faces snoke ‘and slays his true enemy!’ a schwing, and snoke is literally a kebab. ren uses the force to DRAG THE LIGHT SABER THROUGH SNOKES FUCKIN ABDOMEN, CUTTING THAT PASTY BOI IN HALF. he gives it to rey, and then they fight snoke’s guards. its cool, there’s some teamwork, rey throws somebody in an oversized paper shredder. ren uses luke’s light saber at the end.

purple-hair lady sees that they’re going after her people and does possibly the coolest thing i’ve ever seen: she points the ship directly @ the bigass ship, and warps THROUGH IT. because there’s so little fuel, she doesn’t make it to actuasl warp, but is going fast enough that its an incredible battering ram which rips apart the ship, saving the lives of finn and rose, who are about to be executed. 

the floor breaks and they’re about to get outta there when phasma’s squad rocks up. one of the first order machines takes out most of the stormtroopers, and the pilot turns out to be bb8 (yeah, dont worry, rose and finn are confused too), and he distracts them as finn and phasma face off. the floor collapses and phasma falls in. byeeeeeee

rey and ren have won, everythings on fire, and ren decides that the best way to get a girl to join your side of the moral spectrum is to tell her that her parents are drunkards buried in paupers graves (damn, all those amazing lineage theories and they go with randomass power………… sad) and that the past should burn, the rebellion should die, all of it. he holds out his hand, and rey holds out hers SIKE shes taking the lightsaber and they’re basically standing there using the force when, really, some dumbass could just, yknow, GRAB IT. they are so ~evenly matched~ that luke’s lightsaber cracks down the middle, exploding and knocking them out.

NOW WERE GOING TO THE PLANET THINGY (god it never ends) where finn and rose make a dashing entrance and are almost killed because its a first order ship but poe hears them and calls off the gunfire (then immediately asks ‘WHERES MY DROID’ and honestly? i love). theyre surrounded by not-pokemon evolutions which are better than porgs. the rebellion gets a message sent to their allies (none answer. god thats worse than a groupchat) and then realises they’re sitting ducks because there’s one way into this base on the schematics and the first order is fuckin knocking.

hux finds ren on the floor, who blames rey for the death of snoke (bitchassliar) and claims the title of supreme leader, then goes after the rebellion. the first order has super polished weapons and the rebellion only has skimmers, which are the fancy version of skateboards with nerf guns like they are severely fucked. the first order also has a gun which they use as a battering ram.

when ren sends tie fighters out there, rey and chewie swoop in on the flacon and smash all of em (bless). the ground fire, however, gets almost all the skimmers. poe orders a fall-back, but finn doesn’t listen and goes straight for the cannon, a la poe at the beginning. rose, however, swoops in last second and stops him. when finn asks why, she says that the rebellion will win by saving what they love. she KISSES HIM. then falls into a coma.

all hope is lost until the OG BITCH, THE ONE THE ONLY LUKE SKYWALKER IN THE HOUUUUUUUUSE enters like its nbd. He holds leia, kisses her forehead, gives her a trinket from the falcon (two lil gold dice which i honestly thought were dreidels), then goes ‘bitch i got this’ and just stands in the middle of the battlefield doing the equivalent of the middle finger at ren, who loses it. hux tells him to #chill, and when its revealed that luke survived all that firepower, ren goes down to do it himself.

finn wants to step in, but poe realises its a distraction, and notices that the sparkly bois arent here, so there must be a natural exit somewhere. up above, rey is using the tracker to try and find them. 

outside, we figure out that ren is still a punk bitch and gets beaten by luke repeatedly. luke apologises for letting him down. ren goes on about destroying everything. luke calls him a dumbass. talks about rey being the next Jedi.

the rebels find the exit, but, lo behold, its covered in rocks. what does rey do like a fucking badass? move the damn ass rocks. FINNREY REUNION BITCHES. its cute. its v cute. theres a hug.

ren goes in for the kill. luke doesnt die. he stabs luke in the goddamn chest. luke is ACTUALLY A FORCE PROJECTION SIKE BITCH. luke fades away as the rebels escape on the falcon. the remains of whatever weirdass connection remainging between rey and kylo ignite one last time, but rey literally shuts the falcon door in his face (fuck that bitch)

the first order storm the empty base, hux is bein slim shady as fuck, ren finds the not-dreidels on the ground, which flicker out too.

cut to jedi island! luke is watching the sun go down, he smiles, cut to leia and rey pulling a face, and BAM Luke dies. hes gone. poof. his outfit blows away in the wind.

poe and rey FINALLY meet. ‘im poe dameron’ ‘im rey’ ‘i know’ finn is looking after rose (when finn grabs a cloth you can see the jedi books in the same drawer), and starin right @ her. leia sits next to rey, and they talk about luke dying. it’s not a sad death, rey says, but a peaceful one. it was his time, leia goes on. rey looks around at the twenty ish people who make up the rebellion now, and goes ‘how tf do we do this now’

CUT TO slave animal trainer baby in Space Vegas. kid has the ring and looks up at the stars. is holding a broom like a lightsaber as leia talks about hope as a spark which is slowly growing.

cut back to group shot from inside the falcon.

fin.

[romanticrobot]

You can let this ask sit for as long as you want if you don't feel like telling fish dick story now but I'd love to hear it sometime

you’re hearing it now because it’s like… my fav Egyptian mythology story to tell because it is just so Dramatique. And what I’m about to retell to you here isn’t even the fucking half of it.

I’m gonna simplify it a little and cut it short but its basically all the stuff leading up to what is known as the “Contendings of Horus & Seth” (or Heru and Set. The Heru involved in this story is Heru-sa-Aset, the one I worship, and his father Wesir(Osiris) whom I also worship alongside Heru. Set is the uncle of Heru-sa-Aset and brother of Osiris). I’ll use their Greek-ified names so that it makes more sense bc that’s what most ppl know Them by. Story below the cut: 

So, it all started in a time when the Egyptian gods lived among men; the Age of the Gods, so to speak. All sorts of wild stuff was happening in this era (like Ra getting too old to be Pharaoh of the gods and retreating to the Great Sunboat in the Sky, and then getting mad about people not worshiping him and sending his daughter out to punish them for being bad, but she almost ends up killing everyone in Egypt and Ra’s like “oh FUCK, my constituents! gotta get my lioness daughter drunk and turn her into a sleepy cow goddess so she’ll stop murdering!” that’s another story for another day, tho). 

So, there are these two deities, Geb & Nut (the Earth god and Sky goddess, respectively), who are the grandchildren of Ra, and their union brings five powerful deities into Being: Osiris, Set, Horus (the Elder), Isis, and Nephthys. Osiris marries Isis, Set marries Nephthys, and Horus the Elder is believed to have married Hathor, iirc. 

Since Ra was no longer spending his time in Egypt, his great-grandson Osiris was chosen to be Pharaoh because he was the oldest & so was obviously the most qualified for the job. Well, Osiris’s little brother Set was a bit of the jealous type, and this was the first nail in the proverbial coffin (pun intended and you’ll understand why later). Later on, and I’m not 100% exactly sure why/how this happened, but Osiris’s OTHER sister (Nephthys, the one married to Set) somehow managed to disguise herself and seduced Osiris and so basically Set finds out that his sister-wife slept with his cooler older brother and, as you can imagine, Set wasn’t very happy about that. So he takes this betrayal as an opportunity to do be Nefarious and Scheme-y, as chaos gods do (Set isn’t evil though, so get that out of ur head. However, about to do some really impulsive shit here in a moment).

So, if I remember correctly, it is the day that Osiris is to be crowned Pharaoh before his divine court and they’re all having a little party, like everyone in the history of ever tends to do after big events. All of a sudden, Set strolls in with some of his lackeys, and proposes a party game! Fun, right? Well, it isn’t, because the events that follow the party game are gonna suck some Big Toes for everyone later on in a part of the story that I will not be getting to in this ask.

So, Set’s buddies haul in this big, elaborate, golden sarcophagus.

“I’ve got a game for you guys!” Set shouts at the crowd of eager gods, “I want you all to try and cram yourselves one at a time into this Death Box and whoever fits perfectly gets a zesty surprise!”

Imagine Set’s face curling into the Grinch Grin as he watches the gods get in line single-file to lay in a big, gold coffin. Imagine his grin getting wider and more bloodthirsty when Osiris sits himself inside of it. 

WHAM!

The sarcophagus closes on top Osiris, locking him in from the outside. I’m pretty sure everyone was a little fucking confused at first about the “zesty surprise” Set had mentioned before, but they soon found out because Set & his henchmen hauled ass to the Nile, thew the sarcophagus into the water, and watched as Osiris went floating down the river in a glorified shoebox to wherever-the-fuck. Pleased with his Party Game, Set crowns himself rightful Pharaoh, conveniently forgetting that Osiris has an extremely faithful and powerful wife (Isis) that will stop at NOTHING.

Isis sets off on her own mission and she retrieves Osiris from his vacation in Phoenicia, but Set is already expecting that and when they come back he LITERALLY MURDERS OSIRIS and cuts his body into FOURTEEN DISTINCT CHOICE CUTS OF GODMEAT. Then the throws said fourteen pieces of Osiris into the river. Set really likes throwing things into the Nile, if you haven’t caught on to that.

Isis just goes, “fuck, not again. time to find my husband.” luckily, all of Osiris’s body parts decided to stay inside the Nile along different areas of the bank, and each temple to Osiris is built where it is believed his body parts where retrieved by Isis. 

Isis finally gathers up all of Osiris’s pieces, and gets Anubis(who, in some cases is the product of Osiris’s one-night-stand with Nephthys, while others state he is Set’s son) to help put him back together again thru embalming his body like a mummy (this is where i think the tradition of mummifying the dead came from). Osiris’s body is almost fully completed when Isis realizes that Osiris is missing something…. something crucial:

HIS DICK

and so once again, Isis goes out into Egypt and searches for her man’s ween. turns out a certain species of fish mistook it for a snack and swallowed it whole, so imagine isis punching a fish in the gut and it hacks up a dick (in other variations of this myth isis skips finding the penis and just makes one herself out of gold and imbues it with some sort of magic). btw, this certain species of fish was like…. pretty much forbidden to be consumed in AE because of this exact legend. either way, she ends up getting Osiris’s penis back and gets pregnant with their son: Heru-sa-Aset, the first Egyptian deity I decided to reach out to. Osiris is reborn (this is why he is a god of rebirth. When he was alive he was a war/agricultural deity) but he’s become something different: he’s not really alive, but he’s not really dead either. Either way, the other gods decide that he cannot be King of Egypt in this state, so they work it out and make Osiris the Lord of the Dead, and from then on out he resides in the Duat (the Egyptian afterlife) as ruler of the deceased Egyptians he was supposed to rule in the Land of the Living (Egypt). This is why Pharaohs were believed to be an aspect of Horus when they were alive and then as Osiris after they died. He’s also the one that oversees the Judgement of ppl when they die. 

Then the story then starts delving into the Contendings and you get a whole different tale about Set and Horus fighting each other for the Throne of Egypt, as they’re being judged by a council of gods known as the Ennead (which consist of Geb and Nut, Set’s parents and Horus’s grandparents.) That, in and of itself, is another fantastic and ABSOLUTELY BONKERS thrill ride that will make you think about severed testicles, extreme boat racing, and…….. you might not be able to look at an ordinary bowl of salad the same way ever again if you read the Contendings.

[themanicgalaxy]

SPN 1X20 Dead Man’s Blood

this sounds vaguely like a plot episode, so uh let’s see how this goes

god i can’t believe this is only the second episode I’ve been able to watch this weekend, I am a Failure

So this Mr. Elkins guy looks like he might be a Hunter? maybe?

ooo lady in leather jacket

I don’t care if she’s evil, she’s pretty

Please don’t tell me Mr. Elkins is their “dinner plans”

HER EYES CATCH ON THE LIGHT LIKE A CAT THAT’S SUCH A COOL EFFECT

Ah silver bullets, ok VAMPIRE TIME BABIEEEEEE

Listen, Vampires sexy and I can’t bring myself to watch Vampire Diaries, this is what I got

Dean is trying to get Sam to go back to Sarah ha

DO IT SHE’S BADASSSSS

ok see the fact that Dean just knew he saw the name Elkins in his dad’s journal: how many times has he read that journal?? 

Also the way he just Knew it was a Colorado area code, that’s a cool skill, I want that skill

also I was right, hunter, but yeah he had the journal with the symbols and such, it was kinda obvious

the ~spooky figure~ is watching them

is it john? it’s john isn’t it

I like this “detective work outside the law” vibe, 

with the etching of the scratches and the paper and the blood on the other side? ah yes the Good Shit

oh look it’s John I did not miss him

The “Sam argues with dad while Dean gets quiet” is....I don’t know how to say it, but older siblings tend to do it

it’s familiar is my point

*cinema sins voice* “If you’re reading this I’m dead cliche” DING

yOu wOn’T knOw it’S a VampiRE these motherfuckers wear all leather and their eyes glint when the light catches them, it’s not that hard?

okok lore: thought to be extinct, cross or stake do nothing, real bloodlust and the fangs are more spiky dentures that grow in

I like the fact that the myth gets garbled and no one’s entirely sure what’s going on, that feels very realistic

Dean: vampires...gets funnier every time I hear it 

Boi wait till u meet ur angel bf

oOO John’s comments about ruining the car hit, you can tell, sibling thinks it’s nothing, fucking CHRIST 

I hate John

"treats us like children” flhasofa

“you’re ok with entirely surrendering to dad” “if that’s what it takes” SFDHAPSI DEAN OH MY GOD UR DAD SUCKS

vampire wears a cross as a “fuck you” I think? That’s pretty badass

“wait for Luther the Vampire” great that’s certainly a Name for the vampire king or whatever

The captive girl spit in his face, good for her

I mean she’s probably gonna die but whatever at least she’s got some kind of something

This luther vampire guy looks like an eboy

HE’S GOT THE FUCKING ASIAN TATTOOS TO PROVE IT AHAHAAH

Dean is playing peacekeeper that’s Unfortunate and it SUCKS

the “YOU SAID DON’T COME BACK’ ADSFHASIPFSIP

force feeds her blood with a...lesbian kiss...I feel like as far as humanizing lgbt people this did not do a good job at that

I mean again, super mega hell, it’s not like I’m that surprised

oh yay beheading time 

is John gonna stick around the rest of the season? Noooo

At least he dies

“yes Sir,” DEAN HE’S NOT A SIR STOP THAT

oooo Old Hunter Lore from the 1830s and the pentacle insignia, that’s pretty cool

they’re really just...gonna walk in there....

why the fuck do they sleep in hammocks that’s like the weirdest shit I’ve ever heard

UR VAMPIRES GO GET YOUR COFFINS

And of course, the vampire leader sleeps in a bed, what lore are they even drawing from here

The drinking vampire blood IS something from actual lore, from what I can tell, but it’s like....kinda jumbled? so they’re picking and choosing

although that is how most lore things work

oh god Sam and John 1 on 1 I don’t like this 

Ok so John did plan for college? then what was his Damage

“stopped being your father, became your drill sergeant” YEP YEP THAT’S IT THAT’S NOT HOW YOU PARENT

this sounds like Hargreeves. Or my dad sometimes, depending on his mood

god i hope no one ever sees this

Dean’s really the only one that hasn’t had a love interest die in a horrible way yet has he

Cas get in here

“whatever happened to that college fund” “Spent it on ammo” 

F U C K 

Are...they...using Dean as bait? is that the plan

dead man’s blood? oh that’s a COOL AS SHIT ELEMENT I LIKE THAT

vampires...mate for life? WHAT??

I feel like Sam also wants the family to be together but has no way to handle it like Dean might

poor older sibling syndrome

OHO? DEAN STANDS UP TO HIM?

THE FUCKING VOICE QUIVERS WHEN HE SAYS “all due respect, that’s a bunch of crap...you sent us on these trips yourself....you can’t be that worried about us”

F U C K 

DEAN JUST WANTS HIS FATHER NOT TO DIE?? AFTER EVERYTHING?

JOHN YOU SELFISH PRICK

SIBLING SOLIDARITY YESYES Y E S STAND UP TO YOUR DAD TOGETHER

Ah fuck I’m either tearing up or there’s something stuck in my throat

This fucking vampire with the sideburns what the hell

“boo” Smacks with baseball bat

Have I mentioned how much I love Dean? I don’t think I have yet, I love him

THE EYES GLOWING IS STILL SO GOOD AND CRYPTID-Y

at least the lady is wearing something nice

does the Rage Switch and Bloodlust and Sexiness just fucking happen? what the fuck?

Luther the Vampire has a nice jacket, that’s a nice blue jacket with accents

oh John’s getting pummeled? should i care

ah wait this is gonna hurt the characters I actually care about, I guess I’ll halfheartedly root for him

oh for CHRIST’S SAKE YOU PICK N O W TO START THE “we have as much right as you do to live” Debate when you LITERALLY MADE THEM STRAIGHT UP CORRUPTY VILLAINS AND FRAMED THEM THAT WAY THE ENTIRE TIME? IS THE POINT YOU’RE N O T SUPPOSED TO THINK ABOUT IT? WHAT THE FUCK

did sam just say sir? and Dean not?? CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT or SOMETHING??!!

ok listen, the “We’ll go together” Sam smile, Dean looking dead/dissociating as they say yes sir? hits DIFFERENT

Ok uh wrap up?

1. Vampire lore was HELLA interesting, with the eyes glowing, dead man’s blood, second set of fangs cool. The “mate for life” thing was WEIRD, and how garbled the myth got was kinda the point so I liked it right up until the end. The one strange thing is the woman acted INSTANTLY evil once she got turned, and then they framed like people trying to live their lives was a bad thing by reinforcing it both with the visuals and the story. So like 10/10 except for the last ten minutes(hell I’ll even take the hammocks, that was kinda funny), which were just...why

actually speaking of lore, the hunter network lore and stuff was also really fun, I liked that. Again, all good except for the ending bit as far as lore

2. John....fuck john....fuck him so much I hate him so much what the hell

3. In all honesty, we haven’t gotten a lot of Dean recently, and getting that again(with that killer performance holy SHIT) is just? Oh my god?? The way they both handle being with their dad in different ways? Dean playing peacekeeper and desperately trying not to rock the boat because the oldest tends to get more shit? the hardcore dissociation at the end????

Listen I’m an older sister, of course I’m gonna project at least a little bit, leave me alone he’s my favorite emotionally stunted character 

I guess we’re coming up on the end of the season, and tbh, the only good part about this is that it means john will die soon. That’s gonna be a Time. ok, till next time wheeeeee

[sapphonics]

im really into the new marika hackman album so heres a post about which homestuck charaters fit my fave songs. thank u for ur time

boyfriend: any femslash pairing. this is one of those ‘jenny’ like songs where it pretty much fits every pairing, u just need a douchey guy character and every fandom has that. its a good song. im feeling porrim / aranea with cronus looking on (plus i feel like cronus liked aranea? am i imagining that)

Heaven knows we're meant to be But it's turned into a mess No one takes us seriously just because I wear a dress [Chorus 2] It's fine 'cause I am just a girl "It's just a dream" A woman really needs a man to make her scream... You came to me for entropy and I gave you all I had He makes a better man than me So I know he won't feel bad

gina’s world: aranea / meenah OR vrisrezi

Gina had a gun She shot the horizon and killed the sun We never liked the sky, Gina and I And when I find the words I’ll tell her you hate me and how it hurts And she’ll be at your house, with my tears in her mouth...

And it’s so hard to be good But it’s so good when it’s good

Gina’s on the news How did she get there? I’m so confused And I am at my house, with my tears in my mouth

my lover cindy: pale vriskan (not in a good way)

If I was a liar, I would call you my friend Let's hope the feeling's mutual in the end Symbiosis, can we keep it how it was? Now the levy is broken I want more [Chorus] 'Cause I'm a greedy pig I'm gonna get my fill I'm gonna keep my eyes on the prize And I'll suck you dry, I will...

But I'm a lousy lover, even if I try I can go for a couple of weeks and the feeling's calcified And it burns away my mind (I don't know why, I don't know why, but I like you)

violet: (this song is really gay. im not gonna link lyrics. its rosemary ((and also my ocs))

cigarette: THIS IS THE SONG THAT INSPIRED THIS POST. ITS VRISROSE

And I tried to hold my tongue But you, you yanked it from my grip Bathed it in petroleum, lit a cigarette and gave it a kiss

so long: vriskan post retcon. kanaya and vriska talking about their terrible pale relationship. BOTH R , STILL BITTER THO lmao kanayas like, have fun with terezi ur new palemate

Like the world that you feed you’re a lie [Verse 2] Do you prefer her blade? But you’d like to return to her soon ‘Cause she’s stroked your head Did she wear a fancy perfume? [Pre-Chorus] You can tell me I’m wrong all you like Yeah I was wrong to carry on so long [Chorus] I can tell you’re lying by your watery eyes I don’t need to listen to your alibies I know who you’re feeling and I don’t feel nice I’ll keep you in my bed tonight 

So now it’s all my fault And I pushed you into the roams ‘Cause I was so damn cold

i’d rather be with them: pre retcon rosemary where rose is struggling with grimdark remnants and also drinking, and they’re arguing and not in a great place. rose doesn’t want help cause shes self destructive and spiraling but kanaya wants to help her

Stale tongues, the words have gone And all we’ve left is smoky spirits and heavy lungs And I don’t want to talk it through But my head hurts and I hate you [Chorus 1] Don’t make me throw up I know that you will And wake up my mother and tell her I’m ill [Post-Chorus 1] It’s all coming out now, black, brown Wine and vile [Verse 2] Salty eyes, some frothy lips Your teeth are bent and champing at the fucking bit Leading on the window Will you point them and you let go [Chorus 2] You say: “look at the people Crawling like insects All over the pavements” [Post-Chorus 2] I’d rather be with them ‘Cause I just hate this room, it smells like you [Verse 3] Leave it all, I like this song When it ends, you really must be getting on And the needle clicks after I’m out And you look back and the door slams [Bridge] I’m so fucking heartless I can’t even cry I’ve opened my body: it’s hollow inside So ring up my parents And tell them I’m dead And say how you bite me: you fucked with my head [Outro] And I hate your head, and the clothes you wear And I just love your head, and the clothes you wear

majesty: aranea / meenah. araneas goin mad with power / potential for power

Oh, let’s go insane And if we don't come back Let’s do it again You hang afloat I’m gonna pin you down, make you beg for more [Verse 2] Hey, no good for lay If we have control, let’s lose it today Ooh, can’t play my game I’m gonna count to ten, I’m gonna jump in your brain [Verse 3] Gravity, peace has fallen hard for me And the cheeks are on the brack Worship me, I will be your majesty I’m a supreme mad-queen mad-locked-maniac

blahblahblah: damara (or Maybe dead aradia)

Ghost town, walking among the zombies Faced down, their eyes are never on me...

I could try to emulate the brain-dead But I get sick and tired of the radio Buzzing like a hornet in the playpen I’ll unplug, feel my head, feel alright [Verse 2] Goddamn, set yourself on fire Strong crowd to walk you to the fire Don’t be who you are, they’d rather see your riot Son, I don’t like my mind...

blah blah blah  

bonus song i dont really like but is v vrisrezi: good intentions

But up on my throne I killed my sister I’m so alone: I really, really miss her And all those times she watched me bleeding out Strapped on a tongue and gave a smile And told me I would be okay

I just need your good vibrations I've gotten so ill, and I’m still Rigor mortis, set the motion Bring me to life, I’m so tight

another bonus song im not that into but fits: time’s so reckless 

its kanrezi pre retcon where terezi is lying around depressed and having bad coping mechanisms and kanayas bitter that vriska loved terezi more and is kind of. Being A Jerk cause like, terezi killed vriska, even tho kanaya didnt want to talk to vriska any more they were both pretty like. obsessed w her. its kanrezi post vriska grieving together. ALSO THEY COUNT TO 8 IN THIS SONG. ITS GOOD.

Eyes roll up; you can’t even tell me my name “I’m your god”, you can’t even tell me the same You’re so feckless, I’m so sorry Time’s so reckless with our bodies...

There's no light to break this dawn We’ve been in the dark for a while Stuck between blankets and the piteous smiles And the world you know is gone I can be good if you want, I can be kind if you prefer (She can be good if you want) (vicki interruption: kanayas bitter about vriska and terezi) I will be kind if you prefer...

Call me heartless, side-girl complex We’re too honest, we’re too modest [Outro] You’re so feckless, I’m so sorry Time’s been reckless with your body

[koohiss]

30 years since the last critically acclaimed movie, but only like, 50 or 10 since the last one, depending on how time works, skywalkers are fucking shit up in the galaxy once more...

Luke’s gone, Leia’s still a badass, the heavy metal empire has been replaced with the emo-lite first order, just as much nazi garbage and none of the impressive capes. Instead they have a giant toddler who stomps around and eats shit on a regular basis and jerks off to his grandpa’s dead face, probably. Fucking weeb. This pilot, Poe, who I honestly don’t feel much of a connection to, sorry, is trying to get this old man to give him a map to Luke so he can come kick ass. But the douchelord Kellog’s Frosted Fuckup shows up and shoots everyone, bc uncle issues or something. poe gets captured, but shoves the map into his magic 8 ball, which escapes and finds a random superhuman jedi lady of amazingly ironic ancestry in the middle of, you guessed it, a desert. She’s Rey, and to quote some ghost guy who once got gutted inside a palace’s weird power dungeon murder hole, she’s probably maybe might be the chosen one for real this time, I swear to the force it’s for real this time yoda. Then, this amazeballs stormtrooper, Finn, has morals and courage and heart and all the things they wanted in wizard of oz, and is like, fuck this nazi shit, I’m out, and helps poe escape. Sadly, they crash, and poe apparently dies but really leaves finn to die in a plothole of a scene that someone in the writers room should be really embarassed over. Finn meets rey, and it’s love at first “oh shit”. It’s all meet cute/meet thief for a second, and then shit starts blowing up sideways, there was hand holding and running and “follow me”s and then the girl in white and the guy with the leather jacket get on the falcon and leave the desert planet. Classic. Speaking of classic, being the collector’s machinery that she is, the falcon breaks down and they get caught in a tractor beam of a larger ship, which conveniently Han and Chewie are on. Two gangs show up, the giant squid-tribbles escape, scooby doo mayhem ensues. They get away in the falcon and nope the fuck out. Spooky the gollum wannabe teases Kyle about Han and he acts like a pissbaby, says it’s nothing. Oh, and I guess he surprises everyone because somehow this giant moronic imbecile incompetent failure came from the pure glorious happy love of han and leia. Fuck you jar jar abrams. Fuck you in the eye. With a lensflare. This bullshit. The gang checks the map and realize it’s borked, Han gives the lowdown on “it’s real” and also that some sick asswipe death-murdered the jedi like some moron trilby with anger management issues because his mom cancelled his xbox live account because he wasn’t getting good enough grades at jedi academy due to playing the sith campaign of some shitty remade SW game with a pretty decent plot that every teen boy over analyzes and gets the wrong take away from. Anyways, they go to Takodana and Maz’s epic castle that was never fully explained. For some reason they need her to find the resistance for them, which I’m like, just have Han wave at a holocam for like, 2 seconds and you will find literally almost everyone except luke because he’s pouting over history repeating itself. So naturally while they are all chilling at the castle, the party splits bc Finn is scared and Rey is gonna go home and Han is just like, eyes roll emoji. Who knows where chewie went, they act like he isn’t a character or something. But twist, the big ol space nazis find them. Rey finds a lightsaber (prolly just a family heirloom or smth, nbd) and bolts after having visions of all these epics ass movies and shit. My beloved young padawan super duper force sensitive jedi in training Finn is given the lightsaber, bc even Maz can tell that those two are always gonna watch out for each other and are obvs soulmates and he’s the best bet to get it to Rey, the inheriting granddaughter. (also, didn’t a bunch of little kids get murdered with that at least once, possibly twice???) As they leave, death star 3 and with a much lamer name but really cool lore blows the everloving shit out of coruscant 2.0, killing a few more characters that I was probably more interested in than Kyle’s boring weepy “my parents dont’ accept me for being an edgelord” lame ass backstory. Then the TIE fighters try to wreck my fave dudes with some weak sauce army, but then that same ace pilot who apparently left finn to fucking die, nbd, true love amirite? brings the party to them in an epic callback with improved graphics. Meanwhile, that boring infant Ronald mcdumbass over here shows up and after a let down of a fight (c’mon rey, shoot him!) kidnaps his cousin. Gets all creepy and makes teenagers with poor romance comprehension (not their fault, imo) think it’s love and come up with all this bullshit as to why they aren’t cousins. Sigh. But Rey, light of my life, is stronger than this woobie weeb, and she makes him have to run back to the safety of his darth vader body pillow, while she up and obi wans her way out of this bitch. The theme-swapped leto-joker looking vastly subpar offbrand trashcan may have padme’s hair, but rey has her climb up random shit abilities, which go a lot farther honestly. (they both have her hit and miss fashion taste so at least there’s that in common you goddamned r/los that’s all i will give you) Mr. Hotshot takes everyone back to Resistance HQ and conveniently brings the drama too, since he followed teeny!leias footsteps and lead a superweapon to the not-so-secret-anymore base. Everyone scrambles, finn kinda sorta maybe lies through his teeth a little so he can rescue rey, leia guilts han because apparently no (coughdudecough) director can write a conflicted and damaged woman who also happens to be strong without making her completely subsume to whichever half of the dichotomy is needed for the current scene… They go to death star 3 and prepare to fuck shit up. Specifically by doing things that have never been done before with no guarantee they will survive and sassing each other mercilessly. My babies. They find rey off being her badass self, and then right at the point where everything has to go to shit to make the third act interesting, some motherfucking emo up and kills my geriatric fave. Fuck you, marilyn manson. Fuck you. Chewie takes the logical next step and blows his fucking guts out with a laser crossbow bolt, AND blows the fucking guts out of his fanboy cosplay of the death star, because fuck you that’s why. So that’s how the dramatic “ur up past curfew” conversation goes, because I can never have nice things, no the precious goth boy has to live, apparently my needs aren’t important to multi-trillion dollar entertainment corporations, whatever. The absolute wrench fucker chases my beautiful darlings around the currently imploding fucking doom orb of stupid, and they waste his ass with amazing shows of jedi prowess. Finn fights him first and the bastard cheats with his fucking laser butterfly knife like an ass, and precious finn who has never trained a day in his life for this bullshit can only hold on so long before the cheating bastard takes him down. Then rey, pillar of light and all that is good, curbstomps his ass with the prowling predator walk of her father and grandfather before her. Suck it, ron. She’s the chosen one, bitch. Anyways, so I guess the bombs let fly boy (only) get inside and pew pew up the place enough that it rejoined it’s godforsaken stop-building-death-moons-they-don-t-work ancestors. Old ghastly jazzhands on the demon projector asks the weasley kid to go pick up kyle’s raggedy strung out ass, like I fucking care at this point. Everybody goes home (AKA chewie saves all of your asses because even if you ignore him he’s still a cool dude like that) and they totally gloss over the deaths of characters I care about to give us this arbitrary fucking scene of the golden cock block and ir3cutesty5u the soccerball annoying r2, who magically wakes up and magically doesn’t nuke their inferior asses and instead gives them the stupid fucking map, why do you even need a fucking map, all you need is coordinates, jesus christ it’s space, you can just plug the fucking three axis code into the computer and float ur ass over why is there a goddamn treasure map to safeway just use the damn gps good god. It’s space. With infinite wifi. Rey and chewie go to this bird shit covered island and find luke sulking, probably about getting bird shit on his suede jedi boots or losing his best friend and failing his nephew and sister and and the entire galaxy or something like that and then the movie ends

[theliterateape]

Hope Idiotic | Part 25

By David Himmel

 Hope Idiotic is a serialized novel. Catch each new part every week on Monday and Thursday.

LOU HAD JUST FALLEN ASLEEP IN HIS OLD BED IN HIS OLD BEDROOM. Chuck gladly took the guestroom while Lou was home. And it felt good to be home. It was just shy of four-thirty in the morning when his cell phone began lighting up and ringing and vibrating on his nightstand. Michelle was calling.

His stomach did a lap around the other organs as he looked at her photo come to life on his caller I.D. He silenced the phone. He rolled away from it and started to drift back to sleep. She called again. He ignored it. Again she called, and again he ignored it.

Then, a different ringtone. A text message. He picked up the phone and flipped it open.

Please pick up.

She called again. Silenced. He shoved the phone under his pillow to muffle any more disturbances. What the fuck could she possibly want? he drowsily thought.

Maybe you already deleted my number from ur phone. Its Michelle. Pls pick up Lou.

He hated when adults used text shorthand. Another text came in while he was reading the last one.

I understand if you never want to speak to me again. But please talk to me. Pls don’t let it be like this. We can’t end this way. Please. Pls pick up.

Couldn’t there at least be some goddamn consistency in how she spelled? he thought. Then another one.

Please.

The phone rang again. Michelle’s pixilated face was smiling at him. He remembered taking that photo. It was during his fist autumn in Chicago. She was late for work because they screwed around after waking up. As she was running out the door, he pleaded with her to just hold still for one second. He told her how cute she looked. She was wearing her hair pulled back in a ponytail. She thought she looked scummy. He pleaded again. She turned, whipping her head around and smiling at him from over her shoulder. He liked that picture of her. Seeing it come through on the I.D. used to give him butterflies. That morning it gave him dead moths.

He watched her photo change to the message: MISSED CALL. The voicemail notification dinged a few moments later. “Goddammit,” he said. He played it back.

“Lou. It’s Michelle. It’s me…” She was sobbing almost uncontrollably. “Please call me back. I heard you’re back in Vegas at a job interview. Great. Please call me back. I have to talk to you. Ple—”

It sounded like she let the phone fall from her face as she began what he could only assume was another wave of chest-heaving crying fits. Jesus Christ, he thought. She doesn’t even sound human. And how the fuck does she know I’m in Vegas? Eric must have mentioned it to his parents. They still lived in Vegas and were best friends with Lynn and Barry. And there were no secrets between Michelle and her parents. And clearly there’s weren’t any between Eric and his either because he told Eric not to say anything. The phone rang again. Michelle’s picture. That smile. That ponytail. That morning when the storm of the last two-and-a-half years was still somewhere beyond the horizon far from the reach of radar. The phone rang. He flipped it open.

“Goddammit, what!?”

“Lou?”

“It’s four-thirty in the morning.”

“It’s six-thirty. Oh, the time difference.” She was still sobbing.

“What do you want, Michelle?”

There was quiet on the other end of the line. A sniff, a whimper. Then she bawled out, “I’m sorry!”

He knew that everyone wants to be loved; to serve an honorable purpose and, at some point in their lives, want to have someone tell them that they’re sorry.

Lou shot straight up in bed. What did she just say? Am I drunk? Dreaming? Am I being punked? he thought. Lou could only recall one instance in their entire relationship—including their friendship before they dated—in which Michelle apologized outright like that. It was back in college, and it was for hardly anything worth apologizing. She got really drunk at a boyfriend’s frat house, fell in the pool, got into a fight with the boyfriend and called Lou for a rescue. They spent the night in his bed like a brother sharing space with his sister. The following morning she apologized with shame in her voice. This apology on the phone was something else entirely. And he needed to know more.

“For what?”

“Everything.”

“That’s a lot to be sorry for.”

Again, there was quiet. Some more sniffling, then, a deep breath and she wailed, “I’m selfish! I don’t want to be. But I am. And I’m too hard on people. I’ve been too hard on you. I know you’re trying. I know this has been hard for you—the job, your parents, trying to find your way in a new city. And you spend so much of your time keeping it together for me. Because you’re always there for me, and I’m spoiled, and I shouldn’t blame you when you come undone because you’re trying so hard. And I’m sorry about Pop. And I’m sorry I’m not nicer. I love you. I love you so much that I think I’ve always loved you. You’re the perfect man for me because you love me so much, and I just didn’t appreciate that—and I’m so, so, so sorry.”

No matter how different people might be from each other, Lou knew that there are certain things that every person wants. He knew that everyone wants to be loved; to serve an honorable purpose and, at some point in their lives, want to have someone tell them that they’re sorry. Not even an hour ago, Lou was sure that he didn’t need an apology. But when Michelle gave him one, the truth revealed that that was exactly what he wanted more than anything else in the world. More than a job, more than Pop to live forever, more than an unbroken home.

“Jesus fucking Christ,” was all he could say, however.

“I miss your hands and your lips and running my fingers through your hair and your fingers doing that thing you do with my forehead to make my headaches go away­—”

“It’s just squeezing the pressure points in your temples.”

“But it’s the way you do it. I miss the way we make love. I just… I just haven’t said enough nice things about you lately, and I owe you that. And I owe you a happy birthday, too.”

“So what am I supposed to do with all of this?”

“Forgive me.”

“It’s not that easy. I’ve had a great week away from you. Away from all of the shit. And if I forgive you, that means I have to go back and face it all again. And I have to keep fighting a losing battle. I don’t like that plan. I like the plan I have now.”

“And what’s that?”

“To come back to Vegas. Get back to work. Start where I left off and get my goddamn life back on track.”

“Maybe I can move back there.”

“You don’t want that. We’ve talked about that. And frankly, Michelle, right now, I don’t want you in my life.”

She wailed.

“You told me you didn’t love me. You just admitted that you spent the last two years not making anything any easier on me. You just took and took from me and gave little back.”

“I know,” she sobbed. “I’m sorry.”

“How do I know that you really are? How do I know that you’re not just sad because breakups suck? And where does all of this self-awareness come from? Suddenly, you’re filled with apathy and introspection.”

“I talked to my mom. She told me how horrible I can be. That I’ve always been this way. That I stab people emotionally when something doesn’t go exactly my way.”

“She called you horrible?”

“In so many words, yes.”

“Jesus. And she’s still alive?”

“Not funny.”

“Because she’s right. But you don’t just stab, Michelle. You stab deep, then twist the knife so the would opens up, and then you get furious when the blood gets all over the place.”

“I know. I’ve done that to you.”

“How can I trust you?”

“We have to trust each other.”

“I mean things are really fucked up right now. And I feel I’d be walking back into a world of disrepair if I came back to you.”

“It will be different. We can go to counseling.”

“Is that what you really want? Because I’ll do couples counseling, if you want.”

Her voice became clear and certain, like the tears were gone. “Well, I don’t really want it on my medical records that I went to therapy. You have to claim some sort of mental illness, and I just can’t have that mark against me. Not in my career.”

“So, you’d put your career before our relationship. That’s the line. You’ll do anything for love, but you won’t do that? Christ, I’m talking to Meat Loaf here.”

“If we put it on your insurance…”

“My insurance. My COBRA insurance that is already stretched to the limit of visits because of the two shrinks I’m already seeing. You’re the one with amazing insurance. You’re always talking about how wonderful your insurance is. But yeah, let’s dump more financial responsibility on the unemployed, penniless guy so you can save face.”

“Lou, that’s not what I meant.” She began crying again. “Do you think we even need counseling?”

“You brought it up. And based on what you just said to me, we need a lot more than counseling.” They talked in circles for a little more than an hour and a half. Whatever calm he felt before the phone call and vindication he felt after her apology, all of it was replaced with anger. His hands were hot and shaking with fury. “Michelle. I have to go. I need to get some sleep.”

“But, Lou—”

“Later. I’ll call you later. I have a lot to think about.”

He hung up. He plugged his phone back in and put it to rest on the nightstand. He rolled over and looked at the other half of his bed. He imagined the times Michelle was there. It reminded him of the hope that the idea of her gave him. He thought of all the things she just said to him. He considered the tone in her voice. He replayed the conversation over in his head in search of signs of legitimacy. Would things be different if he went back? He noticed his hands were still shaking. Typical. Michelle built something up only to wreck it all in the end. No. Things wouldn’t be different.

✶

HE MANAGED TO GET A COUPLE OF HOURS OF SLEEP. Chuck was nearly finished cleaning the pool when Lou got out of bed and went downstairs. Lou told him about the Michelle phone call. He was shocked.

“Don’t go,” Chuck told him. “Don’t do it.”

“I won’t,” Lou said.

Then Lou got a text message from Mark. The Balcony wants our show. We open in September. Congrats. You’re a playwright now.

“Fuck,” Lou said.

“What?” asked Chuck.

“I have to go back.”

“What did I just say?”

“The play I wrote with my buddy Mark. It got picked up. It actually got picked up. We open in September. I have to go back and do this.”

“What about the job out here?”

“Can I telecommute?”

“I doubt it. And what about Michelle?”

“I guess I have to put some actual thought into that now. I told her I would call her later. I wasn’t going to. But now… fuck.”

“Fuck.”

“All right. I’m gonna go buy a plane ticket. You can get your bedroom back.”

“I’d rather you have it.”

Lou laughed. “Me, too.”

Part I Part II Part III Part IV Part V Part VI Part VII Part VIII Part IX Part X Part 11 Part 12 Part 13 Part 14 Part 15 Part 16 Part 17 Part 18 Part 19 Part 20 Part 21 Part 22 Part 23 Part 24